Today, something came over me. I feel very depressed as if I am so truly useless. So I found a dear friend cum my 'jug' to get some input from her. Yup, these few days the long vacation had truly take a toll in my imaan. And it wasn't even in my hometown yet. I am scared Ya Rabb. Hope you lead me through this path.
So today, ohkay..bring with me Ar-Raheeq al-Makhtum, I journeyed to her house. And keep thinking ..why am I like this? As if the meaning of living is ....meanless. I've got the spark before this but it seems that I am leaving it away,..again.
Upon seeing her face, I feel delighted. As if here it is. Your problem solved. I don't really know how to describe those feeling though. Have you had a friend like that?.. so Sakinah..(punned ^^')
So, she reminded me again of why we are here and etc. And I asked her a few things and I come to the term that I've had been so ignorance before this. As the saying goes ignorance is a bliss. And so am I.
Ignorance makes me..
1) Just follow everything of what had been teached to us before. No question. Even if you question , you would not understand anyway. So why bother?
2) Forget of all the sisters and brothers all around the world. Hey, I've got 3 little sisters and 2 little brother ONLY. So why should I bother about anyone that don't even know who I am.
3) If I KNOW, I had to MOVE. So, if I don't know, I wouldn't have, wouldn't I?
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But think again,
1) If only our prophet chose to ignore us...what would happen to us?
2) If sahabah chose to ignore us...
3) If our mom and dad chose to ignore us about Islam...
4) And what would happen in the Judgement Day , when our ignored sister and brother from all over the world, pointed their finger to us and say " Why you choose to ignore and let us suffer?"
God forbid, I wouldn't know how to answer to that.
Think and walk the talk.
